That First Step

Hello all!

I wanted to thank you for all of your prayers and support! We have not heard anything yet but I have felt more clarity from the Lord. No I don't know whether or not these kids will be ours but I do feel peaceful that we are right where we're supposed to be.

And I feel loved. So very loved by the Lord. Ps. 32:8 "The Lord says, I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you." He continually comforts me with His word.

My ultimate confidence and trust is in HIM. I do not fear the future because I know that He is in control and will never leave me. This is a lesson He has taught me over and over in this past year and 1/2. He placed so many of my greatest fears in front of my face (a baby with Down Syndrome, a baby with alcohol exposure, a 7 year old with behavioral issues, a baby with severe special needs, a completely open adoption, ...) and has asked me Do you trust me more? Do you trust me more than your fears?

He brought us to a point of complete surrender and obedience and now I can honestly say, He has my WHOLE heart. Whatever you want Lord, I'm Yours and I KNOW that He will keep me safe, safe in His arms.

I couldn't be more grateful to Him for this difficult, painful, exciting, and crazy journey we've been on. And now as I wait to hear how this all unfolds, I am just filled with thankfulness and yet feel vulnerable at the same time. in the meantime, I will continue to worship Him with arms lifted high.

I just want you to know that if you feel like He is asking more of you, run to Him. If you are feeling scared and want to hold back, be encouraged - He only asks more of your heart because that is where true joy and fulfillment are found. You were created for a specific purpose and He knows there is only one way for you to live that out.

He wants more of you because He loves you and wants to LAVISH His goodness on you. "Ps. 32:19 "How great is the goodness you have stored up for those who fear you. You LAVISH it on those who come to you for protection." He died to save us and it's in dying to ourselves that true life is found. I love you, my friends. Give Him your everything. Just take that first step. He will not let you fall.