when the sky doesn't seem as blue

Hey friends, I really could use your prayers.

Can I just lay it all out? All that is going on in our life right now is hitting me hard. I have been in tears much of the night. I am weary, run down, and feeling overwhelmed.

My baby is sick. Double ear infections. Very congested. He has just been diagnosed with restricted airways (I think that's the term) which is on the road to asthma. I have to give him around the clock breathing treatments - every 4 hours. Though it is a small thing, the night ahead looms in front of me and kind of stresses me out. Each treatment takes about 10 minutes. His next one is at 10pm.

While at the dr. another realtor called to show our house today. Yesterday I took BB into the dr. as well (had to take him back today because of breathing) and yesterday a realtor also called to show our house. I am getting so tired of cleaning...

That day I was overwhelmed as well and posted it on facebook. A dear sweet friend, Alyssa called me and told me she and her friend would come over and do whatever I needed. So while I went to the dr., she swept my entire house, picked up, and babysat my other kids.

My hubs encouraged me to get away this evening and take some time for myself so I took a nap. He put all the kids to bed and now is working over at the new house. He is truly an amazing man and I love him!

And tonight I had some good conversations with friends (I cried, they encouraged) so I am experiencing the hands and feet of Jesus through my friends in very tangible ways. I am so grateful for this but I just felt the need to ask for your prayers.

With the move ahead (this Saturday) I also am starting to feel some sadness about leaving our home. We've been here 5 years (we thought we'd be here forever). I think I'm nervous that our new place will not feel like home - I'm nervous that it will feel like a work zone. Though really we're almost done, I'm just overwhelmed and so big and little things feel BIG.

And my sister is struggling and hurting. They are in China picking up their daughter and it has been hard. So please pray for them too. You can read more about their journey here.

So anyway, I know that I'll probably read this tomorrow and feel kind of embarassed but you know what, that's okay too. Tomorrow is a new day. Jill reminded me of this, His mercies are new every morning. "Focus at the task at hand. Don't get too far outside of the moment. Go to bed..." Amy said! And Nicole is taking my other kids while I take LM to speech therapy tomorrow morning. I love my friends!

The Lord has promised to go before me and prepare the way, He promises to strengthen me, to renew me, to fill me, to take on my burdens. And so I am going to go to bed with these promises in mind. Yes, I am. By His grace.

And maybe, I'll shed a fear more tears too because I am a woman after all.

Okay, that's all. Goodnight dear friends.