Thoughts From A New Foster Mama

I have a lot on my mind this evening as I think about the future. As foster parents our goal is to reunite these beautiful, sweet children (who have become a part of our family) with their parents. It is easy to say that this is our goal and yet my heart is already saying "noooo!" and we are only 32 hours in. Imagine saying goodbye to these babies after one year....which is the likely amount of time we will have them in our home.

I love them. I loooove them and yet this is why we are pursuing foster care. We want to - no scratch that, God changed our hearts and has given us the desire to minister to families not just children - to families. We have an amazing opportunity to be Jesus to LM, BB AND their parents.

I have been praying for supernatural love, supernatural strength, and sacrificial love as we care for these kids and support their parents. Tonight we talked with LM and BB's mom. I was very nervous but let me tell you, the moment I heard her voice, I felt such compassion for her. I love her too and I did feel a connection with her. God is faithful! Tomorrow I get to meet her and their dad face to face. I can't wait and yet I hurt so badly for them.

After that phone call, the Lord renewed in my heart the desire to reunite these boys with their parents. I just pray that their parents will not just meet the minimal parenting standards but that their lives will be transformed by the power of Jesus! That they will be changed forever and be able to be the mom and dad that God intended them to be. It is possible!! It is possible through Jesus. To think that we get to play a role in this...it just takes my breath away.

And yet, I know that this journey, this road we are walking is taking us to very vulnerable places. We have opened up our hearts to these little guys. We are loving them as our own and yet knowing that the goal is to give them back. This is why I so desperately need HIS sacrificial love to overflow in my heart! He can take care of my heart. I can trust that.

And so we press on. It has been amazing so far! My house has been turned upside down, my life has been turned upside down and I am so very thankful!! Praise Be to God!!

What has he laid on your heart lately? Is he asking for more from you. Trust Him enough to take care of you...no matter what He asks of you. Step out and trust. Free fall into His arms, He will never let you fall!! Oh how I love Him....and I love you too! Stand strong my friends! Today is the day!